cold war

kita merancang. kita menyangka. tapi tidak tahu apa yang bakal kita hadapi nanti.

november. bulan kritikal. awal bulan sudah huru-hara.

berani buat berani tanggung. that's me.

buat salah, kene mengaku.

ditegur. telan. pahit.
ditegur. bagai penumbuk. lebam. sakit.
ditegur. dilanda tsunami. lemas.

diri. diam. bertafakur.
renung diri sendiri.
dalam diam, menangis tanpa airmata. siapa tahu.

attack. ambush. i'm defenless.
she comfort me, keep silent doesn't mean you loser.
but you know where to put your pride.

may be i was wrong. totally wrong.
but disebalik yang berlaku, i've no regret.
because i believe ALLAH had a good plan for me.
HE let me hurt now, so that i know how to heal it in future.

but disebalik yang berlaku, i know myself more.
i know you more. good and bad about you.
how to deal with you.
what type of person you are.

too much thing need to improve. thank you.
i'll consider about it.
as always, in everything i do. ALLAH will answer me dengan cara tak disangka.
feel blessed, alhamdulillah.

may be i'm not good with HIKMAH way. but that's my style.
may be i give bad impression but i conclude that taaruf kita masih belum cukup.
i couldn't BERLAPANG DADA because are we good enough in our ukhwah?
i take my risk. to show you, I'M NOT PERFECT PERSON.

instead you accept my weakness, you put the blame on me.
instead you frust what i've done, you take same step like me.
we are even now. can't you see it?

do u know what is empathy?
do u know how to comfort my feeling?

no. well, i comfort myself. i have to distract myself.
go facebook. likes everything that makes me feel better.
whatever happen, i just want to say I'M SORRY.


لا إلهَ إلا أنتَ سُبْحَانَكَ إِنِّي كُنْتُ مِنَ الظّالِمِيْنَ
‘There is no deity but You. Glory be to You! Verily, I have been among the wrongdoers’

tambah dengan tadabbur surah ad-dhuha. then you'll feel better. senyum.

mari kita fokus dengan final project. yeah!